Day 80

Thankful For...

Beautiful, Flooding Days

Dylan and I went on a 2 hour hike through Glen Helen yesterday right before the storms hit

Hmmm very few times in life do I feel more intimate with God than when I am in the midst of his creation
I wish I could live in the middle of a forest and wake up to tree limbs crackling and rivers rushing by my window

Day 79

Thankful For...

Repairs

Dylan and I just came back from Kansas for grad school interviews
My car has problems, I'll just put it out there
2 flat tires this week
Engine over heating
Heater/defroster is broken
Doors randomly open while turning sharp turns (and when I mean open, I mean fly open/almost hitting oncoming cars)
Funny, grumbling noise from underneath my car

It's a kinda older car
But you know what I love about it: It Can Be Repaired
Just like my relationship with God

I think I prayed more this weekend than I have in months, maybe years
Not for grad school interviews
Not for the car falling apart or driving through 4 hours of a winterstorm
But for the damage that has been done between God and I
The mistrust
The unfaithfulness
And then the Grace
These past few months have certainly been learning months for this girl

Day 75

Thankful For...

Dylan

This goofy man is my soon to be hubby

Tomorrow marks two years of joy

We are going on a mini vacation to Kansas for a grad interview tomorrow

Thank you God:)

Dylan and I usually do not get to spend long periods of quality time together

These next few days will be cherished:)

Day 74

Thankful For...

Joy

Especially on those rough, I-just-want-to-give-up, days

I am not one of those people who love sleeping in
I actually get grumpy if I sleep in past 9:30
Yesterday, I honestly just wanted a day where I could lay in bed all day, pjs, fruit, Bible, journal, books, political articles...---and that's just not me

There is sooo much to be thankful for in this life
Sadly, I somehow run out of time to thank the Lord
I set these mini goals for God and I
Don't Christians do that a lot?
Am I going to keep this one?

Day 70

Thankful For...

Planning

I feel like I am juggling a million tennis balls all at once
Strangely, I don't really want it to end

I don't want to graduate in two months
I don't want to move away from friends and family
I don't want to start all over, again
I don't want to be shaken out of my comfort zone

Last year, I could not wait to graduate
This year, I really don't want to graduate

Sure I want to get married and finally hold that piece of paper, officially making me a graduate
But what about how everything else in life is going to change?
The highlights always sound appealing
But what about the hard stuff in between all of that?

It's really not about what I want though:)

Day 69

Thankful For...

Security

I've noticed lately I have been thankful for trust and faith and hope and security and promises
I have relied on God's promises and truth so much these past few weeks
To know that God has blessed me with such a life...it's calming, it's almost indescribable

Day 68

Thankful For...

Trust

Jeremiah 17:7
But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.

I feel so silly at times stressing over wedding planning
I have never like planning our wedding for some strange reason
And now that we have no ceremony and reception site with 65 days to go...well, I'm not pleased

There are so many other things in life that I would rather be placing as a priority in my mind
Odd?  Maybe

Today met up with a church
It was not too encouraging
Which I found strange

Day 67

Thankful For...

Second Chances...

And then the Third, Fourth, and Fifth

Day 65

Thankful For...

Stars

A constant gift from God

Have you ever thought about our complicated universe?
How God has written meaning all over it?

Day 64

Thankful For...

These Kids

Are Amazing

Day 62

Thankful For...

Eternal Promises


This week has been the worst in a long time by far
I am finding it very difficult to keep up my grades this semester due to my internship
My ceremony and recpetion venue went bankrupt
I feel like I have no time to replan a whole wedding in two months
My adrenaline has been going crazy: I have slept between 3-6 hours for the past 3 nights and I wake up on my own and am not tired

I am worried about how my body is handling this stress
I am worried about if I will complete all 180hrs of my internship this semester
I am worried that my gpa will drop
I am worried about who is going to plan this wedding

Will you all pray for me?

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
2 Corinthians 4:18 (NIV)

Day 59

Thankful For...

The Washing Machine

We have been blessed to have a washer and dryer in our apartment this year
Laundry mats are such an inconvenience
But that's not really where my mind was going today...

It struck me how little time doing laundry actually takes out of my day
Some people despise doing laundry
I have always kind of liked it
It's one of the easy chores you can have! 

What if we still had to wash our clothes by hand?

Day 58


Thankful For...


Success

Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed


What is the meaning of "succeed"?
Well, I'm not quite sure how far the term can be applied with this verse
But, I do know that the Lord has provided the general term "success" in my life


Success in joy
Success in my earth science test
Success in valuable, deep relationships
Success in eternal life
Success in a man that I am forever committed to
Success in knowing a glispe of what hope looks like

Day 57

Thankful For...

Intimidation

Sometimes...
I just don't know if I can do it
I just don't know if I can sit behind a desk for the next thirty years
I just don't know if I can effectively influence people towards Christ behind a desk
I am so intimidated by desk jobs


Eight hours, five days a week for the next thirty years
Is this really what God has for me in life?
I feel so unsettled at the idea
Something isn't right here
Am I really destined for a desk career?


I used to love, Loooove being a receptionist at our YMCA
Sometimes I wished that I could go to college to be a receptionist...I mean I was that passionate about it
What happened?
Where do I go from here?
Do I apply for desk jobs even though that's not really what I want to do?
What do I want to do?
Foster care?

Okay, my mind is about to explode and I have an earth science test to take tomorrow
I'm gonna put these thoughts on hold for a lil while

Day 56

Thankful For...

Those Quiet Times

Some peopole despise quiet places...makes them uncomfortable
I greatly welcome quiet and loud places, but favor more towards the quiet

I worked an 8 hour day at my internship today
The quietness of our apartment is just what I needed...to procrastinate that is...well and to take off some of the stress

Now for some say yes to the dress with the Rooms:)

Day 55

Thankful For...

Being Busy

Yes, I am thankful for the business in life
There are days when I do not get much homework done but I feel so accomplished in serving
Life is very stressful taking over 17 credit hours...planning a wedding...working at an internship 24 hours a week
Ah, but then there's Strength and Guidance, Grace and Forgiveness, Serving and Giving
Tough semester equals a season of growing

Day 54

Thankful for...

Forts

Winter 11'

Ice Day=Fort Day

I have awesome roommates:)

Day 53

Thankful For...

Safety

Another day of being happily stuck in our apartment
Perfect day for productivity and rest
Definitely a day to be thankful for